And to each his own road(s).

As we walk slowly down the paths of life we are faced with difficult decisions.

Some often think that we are destiny bound to a single path through life, but are we?

I choose to think that most, if not all, decisions we choose would lead us down a different path of life. This is precisely what makes us "beings", because we can make decisions that ultimately lead to consequences.

After reading a recently published blog of a friend I decided to share my own thoughts on the matter of where we are going with our lives, but first I think I should share a story about myself...

We were at a church gathering and well we were given a sheet with some questions that one might answer to give insight about themselves to others. On the sheet there was one question that truly intrigued me:

"If money was no object what would you do?"

*before actually reading my answer, I'd like you (the reader) to actually think about your own answers.



If you are a fast reader you probably ignored the above request and came straight at my answer which is that "I would save a lot of money into a bank". Yes out of all the possible choices that I could pick I chose that. Others had answers like "Help out kids in Africa", or "build orphanages", etc. Largely related to wellness of others.

I have to admit I was quite embarrassed with my own answer that I wrote down. Which really got me thinking. "Am I really that greedy? How come I can't see anything more than just myself?" Questions that really made me realize things. Not very happy things, but just things. Then i thought... how can I change myself? I don't want to be greedy, I don't want to be selfish, I want to actually become someone who's genuinely interested in helping people. Most people at this stage would say that "wanting is the first step to achieving", but I am quite iffy about this in that I don't know if I would.

For the explanation of that I'd have to go back to my past life... I grew up in a very typical Asian family. My parents would constantly push me to do things I had actually no interest in doing. They would also comment on things like, "become a doctor, and earn lots of money". Now, I am not putting the blame on anyone but rather just simply pointing out how I was brought up through life.

So come now the bigger questions. What do I actually want to do with my life? Where do I want to go? There are literary millions of career paths that I could walk down, but what do I actually want to do? I do not know.

I have entertained the idea of becoming a teacher for sometime (whether it be highschool or university) but I truly have no idea if that is what I want to do. Another career path I've entertained was actually bio medical engineering. Both of which, mind you, have been "rejected" by my parents.

So now I end with this blog with unfinished thoughts... hoping that the fog that covers the paths in my life will clear as I get more experience and knowledge about the world.

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Too Much?

Lately I've noticed that I think far too much about every little dam thing.

I'm thinking too much about T2.

I'm thinking too much about math questions that are actually quite simple.

I'm thinking too much how I should lead my life.

I'm thinking too much about what future beholds for me.

I'm thinking too much about matters that I should not be thinking about.

But maybe I'm thinking the most about personal stuff... why do I always think of so much ways one could analyze a situation when its only just a simple matter?

yet... I can't help but think too much about all of them.

Maybe it's a human character that we must think about so much things. I, to be honest, feel like a girl right now... what with the so much thinking about everything. My head frequently hurts, and my health definitely isn't too well.

Hmm... maybe this post was sort of depressing, and in a way I am slightly depressed lately.

Ps... my b-day is in couple days ^^

Tough stuff...

Hmmm so there's couple things that i've found hard to understand in life...

so here we go with the revealing of them in ranked from lowest to most (aka as you go down the list the thing i've listed is harder to understand).


1. basic properties of the world (why there's light, air etc?)
2. simple numerical calculations
3. biology
4. math
5. my parents
6. Electro Chem
7. Physics
8. Quantum Mechanics
9. Thermo Chem
10. Girls!!!!!!!! OMG D:

I swear... i've tried VERY hard to understand some girls... but it's impossible... and hence i've come to accept the fact that men will never understand women.

With this cheerful idea I shall start to think of a topic i can actually work on for my term two project... I want to do something related to mechanical stuff.

Happy New Year! Merry X-mas ! Happy term2 project!

So as most of my colleagues already know we have that dreaded term 2 project coming up... I only found this out after coming back from my trip to the states.

I must say my trip didn't exactly live up to my expectations, and i WOULD go on a really long rant about how it wasn't but i won't because I have a feeling that I'll be retelling this story for a lot of people.

On a side note I'm really glad to be back in Vancouver! Although there was the blip in which i had to dig our garage out from the now-ice snow at 2:30am after a 11hour car trip in which i drove for over 5hours. ^^

Now... as I close this thing off, merry christmas , happy new year to all who reads this (probably only one person so far).

ps. i look forward to enjoying what's left of the break w/ my friends ^^