What if the world was just like me...

So as I am sitting here in front of my computer waiting for my gel electrophoresis to finish running... a thought occurs.

What would relationship situations become like if everyone in the world was exactly like me as to how they would approach a relationship.

habit 1.
I NEVER , and by never I actually mean almost never, start a conversation with people.

habit 2.
I NEVER , see above for definition of never, call people .. unless you are my mom or texting simply is too much of a hassle to ask for directions.

habit 3.
If i have someone I like i'll be friggin' honest about it, but I'd NEVER confess out right about it.

habit 4.
I fail, in fact, fail miserably at noticing signs of the opposite gender. Many have tried to show me examples, but more often than not, they all fail.

So combining all 4 of my terrible habits together... we would be living in world where guys and girls will always try to be obvious, but fail to notice the opposite sex's responses. Lack of physical communication will lead to once present feeling to disappear...

What a friggin' depressing world eh? o_o

Maybe it's time for a change on my part...

Weird...

The world is not beautiful and therefore it is.

Doesn't that phrase make one think... how we truly don't know peace til we've seen war. How we don't know right if we don't know what is wrong. Hope is born from a box that produced all the evil. Somehow good always comes after evil, and that we learn by doing things wrong.

But

somehow, we learn to love without the need to learn hate.

5cm/s

I've been meaning to blog about this short series of film i've watched titled

5centimeters a second.
3 short series of animated film.

It talks of a boy and a girl (duh) being separated from each other. Wikipedia has the whole synopsis if anyone's interested.

So here's a short review from yours truly.

The story line is rather good considering it's not cliche. The story is told through subtle hints rather than dialogues and there is hardly any of those fancy anime action. The main attraction of this film is that it's beautifully drawn and the song going along with the story is almost perfectly picked.

But now I'd rather talk about the main message. The title 5cm / s is referred to many times in the movie first as the speed of the sakura and secondly as the speed of a train carrying space crafts. However the director of these films actually wanted to express this 5cm/s as the speed of how humans will distance themselves from people when separated by physical/emotional and other boundaries.

I thought to myself to find this fact in reality; I didn't have to look far. I realize there are many friends who I feel have gone this path of drifting away at 5cm/s. Most of us fail to realize it, but if you take a look at your facebook friends list, how many of them do you still talk to regularly? The fact is try as we man if we are to be faced with a challenge that needs to be overcome in order to see the person beyond that challenge we'd choose to not go through with it. Why? Because we're lazy.

where am i going with this? I dunno... this IS a brain puke.

so... til next post
cya!

Annoyed... again...

It's summer and for most university students it's a wonderful time. Relaxing, and enjoying stuff.

Somehow I find myself getting annoyed ever so often these days.
I'm annoyed at my parents.
I'm annoyed at my friends.
I'm annoyed by myself (sometimes).

Hell i'm starting to get annoyed right now thinking how I can extend this post to be a bit longer than just six lines saying I'm annoyed at the world.

Maybe I've been thinking too much lately, like how the garbage men of vancouver earns more than a teacher. Football coaches earning far more than the dean of a university faculty. How even a simple street cleaner is earning more than grad students who've paid for their education.

How is it that in the desperate world today there is so much inequality?

In a world full of resources and finance we choose to spend billions even trillions trying to squeeze the money out of everyday people instead of perhaps investing in a better idea such as global warming. All the green things we see today are simply illusions that we've created for ourselves to think that nothing is wrong. Hybrid cars? Sure they're great, other than the production of them, the landfill bound previous car, oh did I mention that a small percentage of hybrid cars isn't decreasing the total CO2 emissions of the world by much.

It's all green washing... regardless of how much "eco-friendly" products we buy in the end we are only supplying companies with funds to green wash us more. I'm annoyed at how so many people are going along with all of this and thinking that they're doing the right thing when they're not.

I'm a firm believer that within the next century (our lifetime , maybe the next generation as well) the world will plunge into war and chaos. In the world today we have democracy, the UN, police, freedom fighters, and just about everything that we think is keeping peace in the world. How much peace is actually there in the world? Violence, murder, rape, etc, they're everywhere... and ever since the beginning of human race it hasn't stopped.

It's almost laughable; nuclear weapons can be now created with little knowledge and cost. Imagine, in 80 years countries will start to compete for natural resources, land, even fresh water. When all hell breaks loose how will the human race fight for survival? The population sure ain't getting smaller. Why of course, the "stronger" countries will band together and shut all doors to on comers.

Think about this, if you and a group of 5 friends are stranded on a island with barely anything to survive for 30days in hopes of a ship coming for rescue. At day 25 you all realize there's really nothing to eat and you may all die, and at this point you find a heavily wounded person lying by the rocks. Would you choose to save him? Think hard...

So you saved him and now the food rations are even more scarce, and eventually it runs out. One man dies of starvation, luckily you are still able to make fire and you have a pocket knife. Would cannibalism ensue? What of later? The strongest would group together and take off the weak, eventually only one strong person remains, and even he/she will die. Sad isn't it?

So you choose not to save him. Well sure you'll last longer but eventually the same thing happens as above.

"no way!" so most people would say to how i've played the two scenarios, but if YOU can (truly and honestly) say that you'd rather die then do something in humane can the rest of your group? In the end humans are selfish (only generalization of 99% of the population or more), regardless of how much we hate to admit it.

How is this any different than the dire situation of the world that would be coming in the near future? A bit emo, but this is how I believe the world is going to become if more effort is not put into keeping the world.

I've actually more to say, but I've procrastinated enough from work so i'm cutting it short here.

Complaint about Purolator.

So after much procrastination I've decided to finally ship my old acer to a repair depot. The procrastination, however, is not fully my fault as the acer warranty service is crap (much like all other companies).

So the issue I have is this. Purolator boasts that they have 550 shipping locations in rural areas and that they are always there for you.

I found out (on saturday) that there are conveniently placed shipping depots all over where I live. The problem? The operation hours. All 3 locations near my house has operation hours of 9am to 5pm (mon to fri.), which happens to be when I work. Not very smart of purolator companies to set their operation hours the exact same as most full time work shifts.

How are full time workers supposed to ship thing during the day? I mean sure I can buy the box, the padding and pack it myself and then ship it , but I'd rather have a professional do it for me, and it's simply ridiculous how they can't just change the work hours to maybe 9 to 7pm or hell 10 to 7 pm. I doubt they get much business during the day so why not under staff a bit and manage the time a bit to accommodate the extra 2 hours of work time?

ps. Vote STV

pps. I'm da boss.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NisCkxU544c

Which would you choose?

Pretend you are a professor with a lab in which a summer student has tried to apply for the work study program at.

You are now faced with a dilemma.

The work study program has a strict policy that if the program subsidizes $9/hr to the student's salary the minimum wage is $13/hr. This is excellent as all the you'd have to pay is $4 an hour and gives the work study program student a great salary.

The problem is that your graduate student in the lab who's going to be supervising the workstudy program student currently earns $12/hr, and that you were intentionally only going to pay the work study student $9/hr.

The question?:
Option 1. go with the work study program and save money.
Option 2. go with what you feel is the hierarchy of the lab and simply pay the $9 an hour to the work study student.

on a side note... researchers get paid jack shit...

Annoyed...

To keep a long story short.

I feel I'm being used.

Due to some misunderstanding I was apparently the subject of a lot of hate today... which I definitely did not deserve...

:P

on another hand shit's going down with my life... could go well or not so well... who knows ^^ stupid inside car peer pressured conversations -_-

It's been so long and though I've decided to post something.
First of all exams are done and my first year of university has come to an end. I feel i've made some long lasting friendships through my time at science one.

Although we'll all go our own ways from now on, I pray that we'll always keep in touch and to remember one another.

Second of all, I'm really looking forward to this summer as now the pressure of exams and assignments are completely gone ;)

I'll try and keep in touch with this blog more frequently now that I can... but .... probably not xD

Sore...

Today, I am extremely sore

I played some "intense" badminton and now my arm from the bottom and all the way to the upper shoulders is sore. I can hardly move and it's sort of annoying me. Just shows how much I've actually failed to work out in the past 19years of my life :P

On another note, my visa finally came in the mail :D
It's time to spend spend spend and pay later :P muahaha.

Speaking of spending this reminds me of the times I used to spend literally hundreds of real life money in a game. Maplestory was the name of the game, and well I regret it. Sure maplestory was fun and I was considered top 100 but then I realized that it was only just a game. I had some crazy addiction from year 2006 to 2008 and would play upwards of 10hours a day on a good day.

That's money AND time spent on absolutely nothing that I don't even use anymore...

Why are my posts so EMO!? WTH!? maybe it's just cuz of this stupid annoying arm and the fact that i'm suffering food poisoning and REALLY craving sushi. Well, toodles for now.

Wat Teh Fuxnit.

So after slaving over my t2 project for the WHOLE weekend (roughly 14hrs) ,considering i sleep at 12 and wake up at 12, that's pretty much all of the weekend, I realize that 2 (yes 2!) people seems to have done exactly what i had originally intended to do (but was rejected).

Here's basically what my original proposal was:

1. using a laser pointer and relating the density of the water ([] NaCl) and the defraction through some medium. And finding some relationship.

Niel's response "This is too trivial, please come up with another idea"

If you ask owen he will tell you that his proposal was the EXACT same thing that I was planning to do, and I know that I submitted my proposal far earlier than Owen or Eric Y. (he's the other one). I don't see how his passed while mine was rejected.

I'm not complaining about how my thing was rejected but rather how it was rejected while some other were accepted.

/end rant.

I'll pick up on this sometime later, but I guess now that I chose my sound frequency thing my data came out perfectly. So, everything's okay I guess.

Shopping.

I felt like ranting a little about some stuff that happened to me today.

I was asked recently by someone the question, "why don't you like shopping?". I really did not have an answer to such a question, but now ... i do.

I was forced to go shopping with my mom today at the famed metrotown winners. This is how the general gist of it went.

7:04- arrival at winners
7:20- I finished looking at the men's section.
7:30- I finished looking at possible shoes i wanted (only to realize that it didn't come in size 14)
7:45- brother wanted to go potty (yes i was taking care of my bro , keep this fact in mind)
8:00- Asked mom when we'll leave she said, "soon"
8:20- left due to lack of enthusiasm and decided to wait in the car.
8:45- phoned mom to ask when we were leaving. Reply, "in 5minutes"
9:00- phoned again, reply, "i'm almost done"
9:15- Mom came out with a bag consisting of... 1 t-shirt, and 2 waterbottles.

for 2 hours and 11minutes i was taking care of my brother, trying to entertain him to not get bored and entertain myself in the process... needless to say, it failed.

What's the point of shopping so much if you're never going to buy it? I enjoy looking at things as much as anyone else, but spending 2hrs in 1 aisle (yes 1 aisle) looking at clothing only to buy 1 t-shirt is a pointless waste of time.

Anyone who can convince me otherwise may choose to leave a comment in the box provided :)

The plane

So i've had some phrase along the lines of wanting to get on a plane on msn as my message for some time, and what better place than on some brainpuke that noone even reads to explain the meaning of it.

Firstly, props to all the sci1ners (surprised sci1ners isn't spelled wrong according to firefox word correction) on finishing 2 of the "easier" midterms. What with 2 more to come and this dreaded t2 project that will be soon upon us it's no wonder sci1 is considered to be the toughest first year (next to honors) that's available.

So to those who went to the porn debate (the 2nd day) would undoubtedly have heard the talk of how the addict was able to recover from a serious porn addiction due to repenting and trusting in God. I'm talking about Christianity.

I personally have been going to and fro the church on and off throughout my life. The first times i was at the church I felt that I really didn't bother paying attention to what the pastor(s) were saying and nothing really got to me. Slowly my attendance dropped to just about nothing.

Second time around I felt the pastor had some words of truth, but for some reason I stopped going to that either. Maybe because of how much I've been spending on hmwk, but more importantly the fact that I use homework and my procrastinations as an excuse to not go.

Now comes that weird part about the plane. I seriously don't know what I'm planning to say (hence brain puke of undigested thoughts) and hopefully, through saying these things I'll figure it out myself.

I feel that everytime that I stopped going to church or something that there would always be these random incidents in my life that want me to go back to church again. It's quite strange, but no stranger than quantum mechanics.

Now yesterday I had this interesting talk with Peter (who went out of his way to come to totem to give me a book) and how he was explaining what christinaity was all about. Simple analogy is that there is a plane going from the land of the sinners to the land of the saved. The plane is driven by your one and only Jesus Christ. The point of this analogy is that you first have to know (believe) that the plane is there, and trust in the pilot and the plane to take you to the saved land. You don't know if it will reach the land of the saved either. Everyone has a ticket, and it's totally up to us on whether we board it or not.

I ... have decided to board the plane. There are things still in the world that science have no explained. I'm not saying religion explains everything. I personally believe (still with doubts) that christianity is the right way to go. Hence, I've decided to line up at the boarding gate onto the plane. Why don't I just board it?

lol my answers weren't even answered, and to those who are reading... sorry if this was a total waste of ur time. Cheers.

And to each his own road(s).

As we walk slowly down the paths of life we are faced with difficult decisions.

Some often think that we are destiny bound to a single path through life, but are we?

I choose to think that most, if not all, decisions we choose would lead us down a different path of life. This is precisely what makes us "beings", because we can make decisions that ultimately lead to consequences.

After reading a recently published blog of a friend I decided to share my own thoughts on the matter of where we are going with our lives, but first I think I should share a story about myself...

We were at a church gathering and well we were given a sheet with some questions that one might answer to give insight about themselves to others. On the sheet there was one question that truly intrigued me:

"If money was no object what would you do?"

*before actually reading my answer, I'd like you (the reader) to actually think about your own answers.



If you are a fast reader you probably ignored the above request and came straight at my answer which is that "I would save a lot of money into a bank". Yes out of all the possible choices that I could pick I chose that. Others had answers like "Help out kids in Africa", or "build orphanages", etc. Largely related to wellness of others.

I have to admit I was quite embarrassed with my own answer that I wrote down. Which really got me thinking. "Am I really that greedy? How come I can't see anything more than just myself?" Questions that really made me realize things. Not very happy things, but just things. Then i thought... how can I change myself? I don't want to be greedy, I don't want to be selfish, I want to actually become someone who's genuinely interested in helping people. Most people at this stage would say that "wanting is the first step to achieving", but I am quite iffy about this in that I don't know if I would.

For the explanation of that I'd have to go back to my past life... I grew up in a very typical Asian family. My parents would constantly push me to do things I had actually no interest in doing. They would also comment on things like, "become a doctor, and earn lots of money". Now, I am not putting the blame on anyone but rather just simply pointing out how I was brought up through life.

So come now the bigger questions. What do I actually want to do with my life? Where do I want to go? There are literary millions of career paths that I could walk down, but what do I actually want to do? I do not know.

I have entertained the idea of becoming a teacher for sometime (whether it be highschool or university) but I truly have no idea if that is what I want to do. Another career path I've entertained was actually bio medical engineering. Both of which, mind you, have been "rejected" by my parents.

So now I end with this blog with unfinished thoughts... hoping that the fog that covers the paths in my life will clear as I get more experience and knowledge about the world.

Hey

Hi :D

Too Much?

Lately I've noticed that I think far too much about every little dam thing.

I'm thinking too much about T2.

I'm thinking too much about math questions that are actually quite simple.

I'm thinking too much how I should lead my life.

I'm thinking too much about what future beholds for me.

I'm thinking too much about matters that I should not be thinking about.

But maybe I'm thinking the most about personal stuff... why do I always think of so much ways one could analyze a situation when its only just a simple matter?

yet... I can't help but think too much about all of them.

Maybe it's a human character that we must think about so much things. I, to be honest, feel like a girl right now... what with the so much thinking about everything. My head frequently hurts, and my health definitely isn't too well.

Hmm... maybe this post was sort of depressing, and in a way I am slightly depressed lately.

Ps... my b-day is in couple days ^^

Tough stuff...

Hmmm so there's couple things that i've found hard to understand in life...

so here we go with the revealing of them in ranked from lowest to most (aka as you go down the list the thing i've listed is harder to understand).


1. basic properties of the world (why there's light, air etc?)
2. simple numerical calculations
3. biology
4. math
5. my parents
6. Electro Chem
7. Physics
8. Quantum Mechanics
9. Thermo Chem
10. Girls!!!!!!!! OMG D:

I swear... i've tried VERY hard to understand some girls... but it's impossible... and hence i've come to accept the fact that men will never understand women.

With this cheerful idea I shall start to think of a topic i can actually work on for my term two project... I want to do something related to mechanical stuff.

Happy New Year! Merry X-mas ! Happy term2 project!

So as most of my colleagues already know we have that dreaded term 2 project coming up... I only found this out after coming back from my trip to the states.

I must say my trip didn't exactly live up to my expectations, and i WOULD go on a really long rant about how it wasn't but i won't because I have a feeling that I'll be retelling this story for a lot of people.

On a side note I'm really glad to be back in Vancouver! Although there was the blip in which i had to dig our garage out from the now-ice snow at 2:30am after a 11hour car trip in which i drove for over 5hours. ^^

Now... as I close this thing off, merry christmas , happy new year to all who reads this (probably only one person so far).

ps. i look forward to enjoying what's left of the break w/ my friends ^^