And to each his own road(s).

As we walk slowly down the paths of life we are faced with difficult decisions.

Some often think that we are destiny bound to a single path through life, but are we?

I choose to think that most, if not all, decisions we choose would lead us down a different path of life. This is precisely what makes us "beings", because we can make decisions that ultimately lead to consequences.

After reading a recently published blog of a friend I decided to share my own thoughts on the matter of where we are going with our lives, but first I think I should share a story about myself...

We were at a church gathering and well we were given a sheet with some questions that one might answer to give insight about themselves to others. On the sheet there was one question that truly intrigued me:

"If money was no object what would you do?"

*before actually reading my answer, I'd like you (the reader) to actually think about your own answers.



If you are a fast reader you probably ignored the above request and came straight at my answer which is that "I would save a lot of money into a bank". Yes out of all the possible choices that I could pick I chose that. Others had answers like "Help out kids in Africa", or "build orphanages", etc. Largely related to wellness of others.

I have to admit I was quite embarrassed with my own answer that I wrote down. Which really got me thinking. "Am I really that greedy? How come I can't see anything more than just myself?" Questions that really made me realize things. Not very happy things, but just things. Then i thought... how can I change myself? I don't want to be greedy, I don't want to be selfish, I want to actually become someone who's genuinely interested in helping people. Most people at this stage would say that "wanting is the first step to achieving", but I am quite iffy about this in that I don't know if I would.

For the explanation of that I'd have to go back to my past life... I grew up in a very typical Asian family. My parents would constantly push me to do things I had actually no interest in doing. They would also comment on things like, "become a doctor, and earn lots of money". Now, I am not putting the blame on anyone but rather just simply pointing out how I was brought up through life.

So come now the bigger questions. What do I actually want to do with my life? Where do I want to go? There are literary millions of career paths that I could walk down, but what do I actually want to do? I do not know.

I have entertained the idea of becoming a teacher for sometime (whether it be highschool or university) but I truly have no idea if that is what I want to do. Another career path I've entertained was actually bio medical engineering. Both of which, mind you, have been "rejected" by my parents.

So now I end with this blog with unfinished thoughts... hoping that the fog that covers the paths in my life will clear as I get more experience and knowledge about the world.